I had always wanted to be a mother someday,but I never realized how important it was to me til the day I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I was so thrilled and nauseous but it finally happened!I was only 5 weeks along but I was going to be a mom! It was 5a.m. the next morning and I was woken up by these cramps and pains I never knew could hurt so bad and when I opened my eyes I knew something wasn't right. I was misscarrying. We headed to the hospital to be sure of what was happening and when the doctor said the words no woman trying to have a baby wants to hear, I lost it. I was inconsolable. I couldn't stop crying. My baby was gone and I was devastated. I cried for weeks. I would be fine one minute and all of a sudden I was sobbing. I am not big on crying in front of people let alone strangers but I had no control over it. Once the tears started, there was no stopping them. We waited a few days and then saw a doctor. She told us we needed to wait awhile til trying again. Two months later, I found out I was pregnant with Lauren. I was so happy heavenly father answered my prayer. I wanted to be a mother and I got what I asked for. Though thinking of the miscarriage still makes me sad, I'm so blessed to have Lauren. She brings me so much joy. She is a sweet and loving little girl. She laughs at nothing and everything and her laugh is hilarious. Her smile warms my heart. Being a mom is the best job I ever could have hoped for. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Ever feel like everyone is judging everything you do? I feel that way at times. I'm also guilty of judging others sometimes. We all do it. I'd love to say I'm not judgemental, but that would make me a liar and a hypocrite. We make it seem so normal. Thinking it's okay if we judge others because they're probably judging us too. Let's stop thinking that way! Spread kindness! Go do something nice for someone. I promise you'll feel great. Let's promote love instead of hate. Instead of thinking negatively of someone tell them something you like about them. Get to know them better before you assume they aren't worth getting to know. We all want to be loved and accepted. So we should be loving and accepting right?