Thursday, January 22, 2015
Depression is very real
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
You're way too young to not believe it's gonna be okay
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
When life gets lonely
For those of you who don't know, I'm a stay at home mom. My husband is currently attending BYU and working two jobs so that I have the privilege of staying home. He has classes Monday to Friday, works graveyard shift Monday to Thursday, and works weekends at his other job.That leaves a lot of alone time for me, so naturally I get lonely sometimes. I have a really hard time opening up to people so that's why i decided to blog. It's easier to write it down than say it to an actual person. I've always been able to get along with pretty much anyone but I have such a hard time actually creating friendships. To be honest talking to new people freaks me out. My heart pounds, my palms sweat, and I never have any idea what to say.So then I awkwardly smile and carry on with my day. Sometimes I feel like I'm not approachable. I've been in a married student ward for a year and a half and i haven't made hardly any friends. What happened to the good old days in kindergarten when you could walk up to someone and say " let's be friends!" I would feel like an idiot doing that as an adult. So I keep to myself and hope things change. Maybe I should make more of an effort? I just have this constant fear of rejection, and an extreme lack of self confidence. Who would want to be friends with me? I'm neurotic, insecure, and sometimes a little too much to take on. For all the people who are my friends, thank you for putting up with my crazy self!
Intro
I've finally decided to start a blog. Sometimes I feel like my life is pretty boring and ordinary, but everyone needs an outlet. So this is mine. If you choose to read my blog, here's what you're in for: random thoughts, rants, complaints, and a whole lot of bragging about my beautiful, sweet, and loving baby girl. If you have no interest in those things, don't read future posts. I would like this to be a safe place to vent when needed so if I offend you in any way please know it's not intentional and that I apologize. Thanks for reading!